When I applied to Roberts, I put my major down as Contemporary Ministries. By the time I started the following August, I was a Graphic Design major. The next semester I was an Art Education major. When I started my sophomore year, I was a Communication major.
Needless to say, indecisiveness is one of my biggest character traits. I don’t always see it as a problem, but there are times that it can present a huge challenge. In this situation, finding my passion in life was so hard because I couldn’t decide what I wanted to do. I would get excited about my new major for a few weeks and really throw myself into the work, learning everything I could. But then, the honeymoon phase would fade (as it usually does), and I would decide to move on. If I hadn’t had a long talk with my current advisor, I probably would have changed my major at least 3 MORE times by now and I wouldn’t be a senior on my way to graduating this May. But here’s the thing:
I still don’t exactly know what I’m passionate about. But that’s ok, and here’s why.
I LOVE my major. I LOVE my concentration (Media Studies). They can be so fascinating at times. But then again, there are times where I think that I couldn’t possibly imagine myself working in this field for the rest of my life. I have moments where I wonder if anything I’m learning will every apply in the “real world”. Every semester I find that the papers are too long and the tests are too hard and I think that I couldn’t possibly be passionate about something so difficult. I always thought that my passion in life would be something that comes easy to me. I shouldn’t’ be struggling, right?
*INSERT BUZZER SOUND* WRONG.
If it’s not challenging, if it’s not difficult sometimes, it’s probably not a passion. Maybe that’s not true for everybody, but I’ve come to learn that being passionate about something (for me) it means that even though I don’t know or like every aspect of my field, I’m still going to try my best to make it work. Quite honestly, I hate research, but that’s a good chunk of my time spent in college as a Comm. major. Even though I didn’t like it, I worked hard, wrote my papers and the results were awesome (usually).
I realized that every time I changed my major, it was because I was confronted with an aspect of the field that pushed me in a way that I didn’t like. Graphic Design required art history, which was boring. Art Education had me working in schools I didn’t want to be in. Communication has me constantly researching and reading scholarly articles and I will be the first person to tell you that I would rather not. But that’s ok. It’s fine to dislike certain aspects of the job/class, but I shouldn’t give up because of it.
I just really want to encourage you all to stick with it. It’s fine to change your major, its part of the experience. There’s no problem in starting with one program, finding out it’s not for you, and then switching. It happens all the time! I just want to push you to really think about your motives, why are you switching? Is it because you truly believe it’s not the right fit for you, or is it because it’s pushing you outside your comfort zone just a bit? Really look at your reasons. Talk to your advisor or someone who you can look up to and really knows you. They are often the best people to help you realize your talents and passions in life.